An Exploration of Anger

Day 81 of 100 Days of Blogging

Ugh! Here it comes again.

Someone confronting me about my disconnection from anger.

One of my housemates talked about how solid my heart is and how he can feel me but there is something underneath that I am not expressing. He called it anger.

I find myself wanting to “do” something with that and yet, I am afraid of it. It feels too big. It feels like I will destroy someone or something. It feels like no one can handle my anger. It feels like anger hurts people and there is no recovery.

This morning Erik talked about how disconnecting from my anger, disconnects me from people. It shuts down the dark side of me.

I feel safe with Erik and I feel like I can sink in to explore this. He is encouraging people in the house to look for moments when they sense I am angry and to do things to pull that out of me.

This is so freakin’ scary! What if they stop speaking to me? What if they don’t like me? What if they kick me out of the house? What if, what if, what if?

This is fresh and raw and vulnerable and unfiltered and unprocessed. It feels messy and good.

What?!?!?!?

Did I just write good?

Okay, I’m diving in. Let’s see where this goes.

I know one thing…it is connected to my power and keeping a lid on anger is limiting my power.

What is your current relationship to anger?

Post in the comments and let’s get this party started. 

 

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